Little Love Lady

Today is July 14th. It is the day I was granted more than one miracle. My life and the life of my baby were saved by a whole series of events, amazing doctors, and most importantly....prayer. Even more significant, it is the day Adeline Mei was born.She is force to take notice of. A spirit that will change this world. And a soul that touches me on the deepest level.

I swear, before this kid was even conceived, she was fighting to get here. I was done having kids. I had no interest in getting pregnant. Then literally, in one moment, I changed my mind. I was overcome with the desire to have a baby. I had no fear of it not happening, despite my two lost pregnancies in the previous couple of years. I even said out loud to both my sister and Andy, who took some convincing,  that this baby was coming no matter what......before I was even pregnant.

We had a scare during the pregnancy. I had blood levels that were high and there was a strong chance that something was not right. I needed tests. I needed to make decsions. I started to get scared. I started to doubt.

While home alone one afternoon I  broke down. I cried. A lot. It brought me to my knees. I asked for help. I asked for acceptance. I asked to be given the strength to deal.

I was answered by an overwhelming sense that all was well. I felt like God was reminding me that we, God and I, were growing a baby together. No matter what, this baby needed to get here.

On the afternoon of July 14th,  5 weeks before she was due, Adeline Mei decided it was time to make her debut. She was a show stopper from day one.

What happened that day is rare, scary, big, terrifying, life changing, and so so beautiful.

We are both here and so very alive.

Today my little girl continues to play big. I have no doubt she is destined for continued greatness. I know she was and is needed here. If only to remind me to live.

Thank you Addy Mei.

Thank you for being such a love with all your freely given kisses and hugs. I love more because of you.
Thank you for being such a stinkin' brat and "know it all". I stand taller because of you.
Thank you for being such a fearless toughie. I am stronger and braver because of you.
Thank you for being such a whacky character. I find more joy in life today because of you.
Thank you for being here and being so determined to stay. I will forever be more present and determined to LIVE because of you.

Happy Birthday my little love lady xoxoxoxoxo