Thankful For Index Card Quotes

 Day 18

This morning I opened my bathroom cabinet and found an index card with a quote on it. I made a bunch of these two years ago after I did my intenSati leader training. I didn't want to forget all the amazing lessons I had learned. I wanted to surround myself with Sati. I wanted it to sink into every cell of my body. I thought by reading these over and over again.... I could become it.

I put these cards all over the place. The fridge, the car, my bag, mirrors, kitchen and bathroom cabinets,etc........

The one I found this morning was something I remember Patricia Moreno saying at training. It floored me. Still does.

"Your life is a reflection of your beliefs."

When I first heard it I immediately scanned all the things about my life that I was less than thrilled about. Did I believe that this was because of my own beliefs??? I, because this was just me at the time, went straight to my weight. Could I buy into the idea that not being able to loose those last 10 lbs had something to do with what I believed about myself??
Or was it just that my body was leveling off at a weight it was comfortable in?
Or that I am big boned?
Or that having a flat belly has everything to do with genetics?
Or that after having a baby you just could never be an ideal weight again?
Or that every nutritionist I have ever been to didn't know what they were doing so I just had to do my own thing?
Or that I already ate so healthy and worked out so what more could I do?
Or that I don't have the time to work out more?
Or I don't have the time to prepare my meals with being a mom?
Or that my body was as good as it could ever get?
Or that if I had the luxury of a personal trainer and chef, like all the celebs, I would be able to loose the last 10lbs too?

Wait a second........this is what I was thinking all the time

A belief is just a practiced thought.

What I had been thinking over and over again about myself and my weight had become a belief. This belief became a knowing. It then became my reality.

Holy crap! Maybe this was true.

I needed to change my thinking. I needed to change the thoughts I was practicing day in and day out. I NEEDED to do this so that I would have new beliefs and therefor my life would soon reflect my new beliefs.

Gratefully, I did do this. I started looking for the things I did like about my self. I started looking for and at these things more often. I replaced my old beliefs with some new ones.

I am strong.
I am disciplined.
I believe I will succeed.
I am good enough.
I am beautiful.
I am capable of anything.
I am fit.

It worked. I practiced these thoughts over and over again. I started to believe them. They started to manifest in my life. I witnessed them as realities.

Then I lost some, not all, of these new beliefs and regrettably referred back to some old ones......BUMMER to realize this. But also now that I know better I can do better.

As I write this today I am realizing that I need to look at my belief system again. What do I believe about my body after another pregnancy? What do I believe about motherhood? What do I believe about being a mom and working? What do I believe about me having a career? What do I believe about money? About abundance?

It is time to practice sati or mindfulness. I need to be aware of the thoughts that are occupying this big (yes I have a big-huge-Irish head) of mine. What am I focusing on? What do I need to change? Where do I need to shift my perspective?

What about you....what are you thinking about? focusing on? what do you believe? how can you see this reflected in your life? what are you willing to let go of? change your focus?

Oh.....so much to ponder.

Hope you do. Ponder that is, and maybe make your own shift.
Where do you want to change your beliefs and their reflection in your life?

This is sure to be continued..........