Promises

Hey all! I have been sitting at this computer trying to get this post started for 2 days. Drawing a huge blank. Is that I don't know what to say or that I have too much to say? Still not sure. What I do know is that I want to write more. I feel good when I write. I have fallen deeply in love with writing and am so not willing to let it go. Therefore, I just need to stop procrastinating and DO IT!

I am making a commitment right here, right now. It is one that scares me. I have fear that I won't follow through. What if I don't keep my promise? Oh, I have been down this road before. That feeling of telling myself, " This is it, time to eat right, get healthy, I am totally starting on Monday, no if ands or buts about it!" Monday then would come and maybe after breakfast I would have a little snack, I would mindlessly eat too much and then..."Oh well, there I go again, now this day is shot! Who am I kidding? I can't do this." Anyone relate??

Gratefully, today I do nourish my body and choose foods that fuel me and feel good. It takes discipline, yes, it also takes surrender. I trust that if I stick to my plan of feeling good with my food, that I will..........feel good. It works. Really.

Every time I try to promise myself something and don't stick to it, I kill my spirit a little bit at a time. It could even be something little like putting the laundry away. I tell myself that I want it done in one day and when it is still sitting there after 5 days, I feel like crap about myself. I could give a zillion excuses for why it is sitting there. I am busy mom of three for crying out loud. I have a life. A life that does not stop for laundry! BUT reality is if I had just taken maybe just 15 min out of watching a rerun of The Real Housewives I could have gotten it done. I would feel so much better knowing it was done and I would enjoy those crazy, bitchy, and wonderfully entertaining women so much more.

So, after sitting with some uncomfortable feelings in the last couple of weeks, I have come to the conclusion that I need to make a shift. I am willing to practice discipline and surrender in more areas of my life knowing that it is where my freedom lies. If I can commit to something and not doubt its truth, if I can stay clear of the shame, guilt and resentment of broken promises...............DAMN that is freedom.

So.....on this fine Thursday night I am making just 2 promises to myself. I am writing about it here for that, much needed and much appreciated,  added accountability.

1. I am taking part in Patricia Moreno's 30 day Meditation Challenge. I will wake up early and do Wayne Dyer's AHHH meditation for manifesting for 20 minutes each morning for 30 days. From what I have been told, it is fabulous stuff. I started today. I am going for it, two legs in.

Anyone want to join me????

2. I will also post on this blog every single day for the next 30 days.

These two things are good freakin stuff. Stuff I talk about wanting to do all the time. Stuff that feels good.

Time to walk the walk baby.

You will be hearing from me tomorrow.

Nighty night